Just a thought on getting back to God...
I'm in the middle of a break-up and I'm looking hard at 'letting go and letting God'. God in this instance is my rebound, and that idea troubles me a bit as I've been most recently an ardent practitioner of disbelief. A case of cognitive dissonance ensues.
I've given up for the time being on the various apologia offered by Western intellectuals in defense of the faith. I believe it's no coincidence that God chose to anchor the Christian faith in the East. The Bible as the faithful view it is a tool intended to communicate God's Truth across history and cultures by the mechanisms of translation and interpretation. It's purposefully crafted to cry out inclusively to the diverse perspectives of individual minds dyed in a variety of divergent worldviews. Why would a defense of the Bible rely on showing a conformity to reason? It seems pushing Platonic thought into the mix is a little too chauvinistic, though certainly appropriate for a Western perspective. The Bible survives nevertheless.
My emphasis in this personal revival is given less to justification than to the experience of faith. Relying on grace I pray and meditate, coming to the presence of God with the assurance that I appear before the Most Holy in petition and praise as a creature of spiritual purity. I am free to approach God as a child rather than as a man who is Holy by virtue of the life I lived. This is most liberating, and with this perspective I often find myself filled with a sense of utter acceptance in my prayers. The accompanying euphoria is a reprieve from the doubts that have poisoned my faith in the past and threaten to be this seasons undoing.
For the love of God, I believe. Lord, help me in my disbelief.
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